Imagine ...

Imagine if your child told you he wanted to kill himself.
Imagine that your child is only 11 and suffers from ADHD, SPD and anxiety.
Now imagine dealing with this on top of everyday stresses like work, running a household, personal health issues including going blind rapidly AND trying to maintain friendships.

So please understand that I have A LOT going on in my world right now and that I'm not purposely ignoring you nor do I think my battles are bigger than yours.

I don't want nor need to be shut out, ignored or harrassed with phonealls of how you can help me when we both know you are simply fishing for fodder for gossip. Please just understand that you are not on my immediate priority list and at this point in time I have myself and my family to focus on.

I does not mean that i don't care, I just can't RIGHT NOW.

I've had a particularly tough day today and have had to come home to deal with suicide thoughts with said child.

I ask that before you pick up the phone or send a text that you try, just try, to empathise with what we are dealing with and accept that i really don't feel like sharing more than this with anyone. Its too much for ume to bear and our friendships are already feeling strain, the friendships can't handle this pressure, trust me. I've seen a few come and go.